The life you want already exists, it’s just waiting for you to step into it
my apartment complex existed long before I thought of it and appeared here
it was always already here and available for me
I just had to step into alignment with the type of person who would find it
and that type of person was someone who lived in CA and was looking for apartments
my boyfriend was alive and walking this earth before I was
he’s always existed, was always available to me
I just had to step into alignment with the version of me who would meet him
who would receive him
who he’d receive
what you want is already yours
the money, the impact, the love, the results
it’s all already here
you just have to become the person who says yes and no with conviction when your gut tells you it’s the right next move, even if you consciously don’t know why and even if it’s crazy and scary
because otherwise you’ll just keep...
I want to share something that I wrote in the bathtub the other night.
While I was soaking in lavender Epsom salts somewhere in southern California.
Something that honestly, 5 years ago...I wouldn't have even let myself admit that I wanted.
People would talk about moving, and I'd shake it off without even letting myself consider.
"No, my family is here. I love my friends. Life is good."
And you know...my family is at home. And lots of my really good friends are too.
And I love them. And I talk to them every day lol.
I wasn't letting myself imagine what it might be like to move to California because I was afraid it wasn't possible for me.
And if I wanted it, and it didn't happen...I'd be heartbroken.
But if I wasn't interested...it was guaranteed not to happen. And there'd be no surprises.
I'm grateful that I got over my ego one step at a time.
Here, I want to share with you what I wrote now:
I’m writing to you now from a bathtub in San Diego, whereas 5 years ago...I was...